Random Thoughts

There are times in my life when I am not sure.
I wish that there was someone to tell me.
Was I right to let you go so many times?
I did not even put up a fight.
Does that mean that I do not love you enough?
Or that I love you too much?
Should I hide the way that I feel from you?
The way that I always have.
Or should I take you into my arms and make you see what is in my heart?
Should I silently wait for you?
Should I reflect on a future of loneliness?
So many questions in my mind.
I have always thought that I was wise.
But now I feel like a child.
I need someone to tell me how to act with you.
Because I am not sure.
I am so confused.
There is so much that I have written, and your eyes are just seeing it.
Do you know how much of that is to you?
I will bet that you don’t.
You can not imagine how you fill my thoughts.
You can not know what you are missing.
And I doubt that you ever will.
But that is the game of life.
Some of us have to win and some have to lose.
But when it comes down to it,
We all have to play.